I was explaining the card game of Hearts, a family tradition, one evening to some friends in an AirBnB on a stormy night on the coast. In my attempts to describe how to go for all of the hearts plus the queen of spades in one round, I said “If you’re gonna get it, take it big,” leaving my pals spewing beer and doubling over the table of cards. I blushed with the realization of how many different ways this could be interpreted but also felt like if there were any words to describe what goes on in my wacky brain, it was that.

I’m not sure when the fire started but something burns hot in my chest. I feel the yearning to see more, do more, be better, take more risks… live larger. It’s time to go. It’s time to take it big.